AutoImmunity

Hi anyone who still visits this blog in hopes that I will have one day found time to update and write again.

One of my closest friends is terribly ill with Auto-Immune Hepatitis and has Cirrhosis of the liver and was diagnosed at 21. She's 22 now and she sent me this email this morning, I felt that it is something everyone and anyone needs to read as it will serve as inspiration for all of us facing any form of adversity...

The life of a young lost girl yet a strong and capable woman. The plans are big. Overwhelming but I can take them on. My heart aches. Failure knocks. I go outside and kick it’s ass. However, like any pest problem, it comes back stronger, pounding on the door. Go away! I can and will overcome. I have to, I was created to. This cracked heart is fully capable of repair. However, my blood struggles. I know, you are thinking, “blood”?? What does blood have to do with anything? I will tell you. My every cell carries the memories of the pain. Each time I was hurt, emotional or physical, it is there. Einstein said there is no matter, it is all energy. That means there is no empty space and everything resonates. Yes I have been doing a lot of research lately and it is coming through in this blog and you have no idea what I am talking about. I really don’t care. They may want to control the world, control the population, kill off the weak. God is bigger than that though. They have no chance because my Lord is so much bigger than pain and death. I will explain.

Yes, my blood may have toxins. My liver may not work right. It causes headaches, joint aches, stomach pain, just to name a few! All health problems start in the colon. 80% of your immune system lives there and it acts as a second brain! Oh how I love science. I mean I really love it. Quantum physics and biology. Ok, that is off topic though. Vaccinations. Trash food. Jet streams. Chlorinated pools. Mercury fillings. Lead paint on the walls. Parasites. Man-made viruses. Just one of those would be enough reason for a ruined liver.

But I don’t believe that is all the reason. We are spirits that have a soul that live in a body. Everything begins in the spirit and is then manifested in the body. My blood carries the hurt, the pain, the self-hatred. How can I be so torn between knowing who I am in Christ, knowing how truly amazing and the potential that I have. It is all my fault though. Who am I to place the blame on others? I know I need to forgive them. Whatever, everything in me wants to blame them. Hey I can blame them and me at the same time right? That is it! It is a constant internal struggle. See, writing can help. Part of me knows who I am, who God created me to be, a co-creator with Him and yet part of me is living in the flesh, dwelling on the hardships life has. The struggle of knowing how to eat right and not being able to do it. This is me being quite vulnerable. It is hard to admit your problems. Will I ever find love. Not likely. Oh, stop, lie from the devil. See? Welcome to the world of inner-turmoil.

The blood carries the cells. The cells vibrate with different memories, memories that are attached to lies from the devil. When I think of these memories or feelings, I constantly try to replace them with what I know to be true. Biblical foundations and spiritual actualizations as the Holy Spirit whispers the truth in my ear. I must cleanse. I must trust God because, although I am capable, nobody can do it alone. Nobody should have to do it alone. Life is too hard. My King will be coming back soon and I want to be His beautiful bride. Shouldn’t we all help one another. That is all I want to do. Well that and sing love songs to my Jesus.

One good thing about all of this is that with every hurtful memory I have vowed to never treat another person the way I have been treated. I pray that God will give me the wisdom, sensitivity and strength to do this.

My goals are to first and most importantly cleanse my mind because all creation starts there. I create what I imagine. Then my hurts, pain, self-doubt and all the painful memories must go and be replaced with the truth from my Healer. Wow! Wouldn’t life suck without God! Then how easy it will be as my every cell is filled with His Spirit, covered by the blood of Jesus, then, yes then, I can do it. I can have divine health. I can help others. I want to help the world. I want to see them saved, healed, delivered. Nobody should have to live in turmoil. I believe it is natural for us to love ourselves because we are made in God’s image and He loves us more than anything so for one to hate themselves is to create a turmoil so deep that it causes the body to attack that hate. Even for those who don’t know God, it is still automatic for the Spirit that lives in us to attack the hate, the pain, the hurt within because our bodies are temples made for God to dwell in whether people know it or not. Made to love ourselves. This battle. This turmoil. This is autoimmunity.

I will overcome.

[encountering the chabod]

All schools try to make orientation day an exciting event that sets off a students academic career with excitement that they hope will carry on through the first semester. What they really hope to do is sustain you until homecoming and then reenergize you to keep you excited until the next break. What this fails to do is cause you to be excited about every day of classes. After all, who can really be all that excited about theories and regimens that are suggested for further study on a daily basis? Even Christian colleges and universities are not exempt from this.

Enter Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. Never have I been so challenged nor felt the weightiness of the presence of God on a "Rules Day" at any school.

The day began with worship. An hour went by and it felt as though it were a moment. Forty-five minutes later the Spirit was still heavy on the worship. By the time all the introductions were made and Bill Johnson stood to speak, some people were unable to stand, others were unable to stop laughing. The power of God was so strong. There was no moment where the weight of God's glory was not felt. And today was the "rules day!" If today was like that, then tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next will just build on it. The excitement and expectation levels are electric! We will have more of God's presence and His glory.

As long as we have a pulse, we can handle more of God.

You know, I've often heard a story told about John Wesley and his experience with the weight of God's glory and how it washed over him in wave after wave after wave until he felt that he could no longer withstand the power of God. I want that experience, but instead, I want to get to that place where I feel like I will die, and just keep going. There's a certain boldness in Esther's words that we need to grab hold of. I go before the King and if I perish, I perish. Understanding that as we enter the presence of the King, we enter a place where if we are not right, we may perish. When the weightiness of the presence of God comes on us, we experience power in an amazing way. Sometimes it may cause us to feel that if it continues or progresses then we will die. But as long as we have a pulse, we can handle more of God. He will only give you as much of Him as you choose to handle. Will you push the boundaries set by others? Will you expand the borders you have imposed?

It's funny, we pray from here on earth to there in heaven in wailing and crying pleas, doing anything that we think needs to be done in order to get God to move. But in reality we need to be praying from where we are seated in heaven to where He is seated in heaven (since we are already seated with Him in heavenly places) and out of the realization of our authority there- because to be seated with Him does not mean "in the same room as," but "next to," we can speak to any situation here and expect correct results.

I am going before the King daily, I have not yet perished so I return because as long I breathe and have a pulse, I can handle more of Him and more of His glory!

(side note: during classes on wednesday, i opened my computer to take notes only to discover that my computer screen had so much gold dust on it that i could scarcely see through it. i had to continuously wipe off the screen to write, but after a certain point, note taking became futile and the guys sitting next to me started anointing each other with the gold dust! if this is happening on the second day of classes, and we move from glory to glory to glory, then the chabod of heaven- the weightiness of God's glory will intensify and we will soon experience incredible new things!!)

the Gospel of the Kingdom and logical natural conclusions

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so here it is all laid out:

it's all in our mindset. remember my blog about perspective, well this is going to take it one step further... how we view things in the church determines how we allow God to move.

i don't know what denomination you attend or even your theology, and i don't have a desire to put down any denomination or theology, but i am convinced that the only way we can overcome our faultlines and our rifts is by having a Kingdom mindset. and what do i mean by this? i mean, seeing the world through the Kingdom's Visionary- the King Himself.

i am thoroughly convinced that all theological controversies can be rectified simply by filtering the issues through the life of Christ. after all, if He is to be our example then why aren't we living like Him?

ok, so check this out: if we determine that Jesus is the Word and He became flesh (John 1:1), and that the Word was with God and the Word was God (also John 1:1) and that He dwelt among us (John 1:14) and by seeing Him, we are witnesses of His glory (also John 1:14), and we are to be imitators of Christ (Ephesians 5:1-2), then we must take note of the things He did, even imitating them... all of them. we can't just pick and choose the things that He did that we can do. if we do, where do we begin and where does it end? if Jesus did certain things where He was more God than man, then how do we determine what it is that we can do and what is beyond our grasp?

my point is this: if we are called to be ministers of the Gospel (the good news) then we must realize what that entails. What did Jesus say the Gospel is? Everytime Jesus mentions the Gospel, it is always preceded with or followed by the words "of the kingdom." what is the Gospel of the Kingdom? the kingdom of heaven is at hand. how can this be? if heaven is a future place. how can it be at hand? how can it be relevant and attained now?

what happens in heaven does not stay in heaven

remember when the disciples asked Jesus to teach them to pray and Jesus gave them the teaching that's been come to be known as the Lord's prayer? "your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven..." what exactly does this mean? is it a petition for a future event or is it for that time that it is prayed?

if everywhere that Jesus went, people were healed and set free and those things accompanied the gospel of the kingdom, then what is our natural conclusion? if we were philosophy students, then our natural logical conclusion would have to be that anywhere the gospel of the kingdom goes, people will be healed of physical ailments and set free from demonic oppression.

so, then, it begs the question, does the Gospel that we preach line up with the Gospel Jesus taught? what is the central focus of our Gospel compared to Jesus' gospel?

if we are to conclude that the Gospel that we teach is superior than the one that Jesus taught, then we must wonder why? if the student is not above the master (matthew 10:24), then how is our gospel higher than that of Christ? what gives our message the pass of not having the signs and wonders that Christ's message had?

did He not commission the 12 (and then the 70) to go out and preach the gospel of the kingdom and gave them the power and authority over unclean spirits, to drive them out, and to cure all kinds of disease and all kinds of weakness and infirmity? in point of fact, did not Jesus say, "And as you go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand! Cure the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, drive out demons. Freely (without pay) you have received, freely (without charge) give." (Matthew 10)?

chances are, if God repeats a theme, there's a reason for it. if it is recorded over and over, there's clearly something we have to grab from it. it usually means that He's trying to drive a point home. so if the gospel of the Kingdom is confirmed with signs, wonders and miracles, then it should be that if we preach the gospel of Christ, which is the gospel of the Kingdom, then it should be confirmed in the same way.

that is not to say that we will always see the results, but shouldn't we walk as though we will? yes, it puts a HUGE responsibility on us... but can we expect anything less? i mean, He entrusted us with the gospel of the kingdom, don't we owe it to people to pass out the entire gospel? shouldn't we be getting off of our blessed assurances and be out giving the gospel away?

what does it say about us as a church universal if we are more concerned with saving our christian society than we are about preaching the gospel that Jesus preached- the gospel of the Kingdom?

what about doing the works of Christ and doing greater things (John 14)?

the logical natural conclusion is that what we preach as the gospel is not what Jesus preached as the gospel. if God confirmed what Jesus preached with power; and if He confirmed what the Twelve and the 72 preached with power, then wouldn't it be in His best interest to do the same today? After all, isn't He the same yesterday, today and forever?

remember the Lord's prayer? His will for ours, on earth as it is in heaven. is there any sickness, any disease in heaven? then it must not be His will there- the conclusion? His will for ours, on earth as it is in heaven. the logical natural conclusion?

you figure it out...

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